27 years of nothing but failures
and promises that i couldn’t keep…
i’m beginning to feel as if it’s all coming full circle now. for so long i have had so many unanswered questions and for the first time in a long time i am starting to understand and figure out what i want. some of it isn’t pleasing to me because i’m starting to realize how much i’ve changed and how much my views on things have changed. its scary to realize all the mistakes i’ve made and the way i’ve treated some people. it’s embarassing and somewhat disconcerting.
it’s time to start making decisions for kt. not to make someone else happy, or moreso, to make sure someone else is being taken care of. when it all boils down to it, i’ve taken care of so many people and who am i left with to take care of me? no one. so what have i gained by all these years of self-sacrifice? nada. so now it’s time for me. decisions to make me smile. songs to make me sing along at the top of my lungs. movies and books to make me question everything and nothing. and love for the sake of love. nothing else…
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